Final Note

     (THIS NOTE WAS BY A YOUNG GIRL ON THE REFRIGERATOR IN HER HOME, ADDRESSED TO HER GUARDIAN. IT APPEARS TO HAVE BEEN WRITTEN RECENTLY BY AN UNSKILLED WRITER. THIS IS WHAT IT READS....)


I want you to know how I.... [no, not like that, strike it out]



Dea... [too nice... too happy... strike that too]



[Forget it, I'll just write whatever...]




I guess this is the end for us. We were so close... you meant so much to.... together, we.... why couldn't we just.... why did you...?

WHY!?

After everything... after these last few years
why did it come to this? You knew back when this all started that
I had nobody ! ! I had nothing ! !
You knew that I hadlost somebody so close to me
and I hAd run away from it all and that I waS so frajile
that I was going to brEak with the sLightest touch yOu came to me... you offered me a home... you Said you would love me and taKe care Of me... that was almost two YEars ago. did you think after then that I would suddenly be so much
stronger that even what You did wouldn't hUrt me ? ?

You were wrong... what you did to me wAs wrong... and now EVERYTHING is wrong ! ! How come I had to
                  find out
what you truley were this way ? Whydid you reVeale your true cowardLy colOrs
I N    F R O N T   O F    M E      liKe that ? ? ? ?
     I would have been happy to live on in an illusion
I loved you
you know that.but its not
its notgonna work any more

Sorry bout my writing...
                                       I'm trng S hrd just to st here and put this stupid fading pEn onto ths stpd scrnchd p paper. without bursting into tEars and thrOwing ths nte awy
                                       Bt I wnt yu to rd this, ok ? ?

im putting the last of my conshus.... consciuss... cons.... forgOt how you spell that,
but I'm putting it into this letterI just hope
you get to read this... because it's all you will have left of me.


i keep
rembering hOw This All startedyou foUnding me

scared and alone

and asking
if
id like To come wiTh yOuI was so fritened and scard bak then of course I said yes You said you l iked me and thought I was cute.

And
then when yo asked me that spEcial     s pec ia l qu e sti on     I was So  h ap py ! !
t hat you wanted me
me to join your family

then all I wanted wasto belongto be lovednd cared for
                                                                          liKe a nOrmal gIrl

but things devlopedI got O L D E R and you noticed every s i g n l e                                                                                               c h a n g e   you greW closerandcloserto meand I thougt you were thB  E  S  T    T  H  I  N  G have ever happen to me the only boy i woud ever drem of

lovingig

becas i had lonago convInce my self thaT the reSt wer sliMe nothingbut P   I   G   S ! ! ! !  who treated girls like
DIRT
and lauged When theY criedi thouht youweEre diFFerent really Iid

i did belong i did fit in i was even tolerated by
that girl you seemed to always be with  you called me fun names candy and sunflower
for a while i thought i was like a dauter evntally i realised you were growing closer andit wasn't just a matter of father daughter anymore

we loved each oter

i had find that perfect person i coudnt be more happy
we did so much things
which i am still embrased and even
disgusted
that we didbut it
was thebest time of mylife so
if it was good
for both of us why did you have to go and R U I N   I T ? ? ? ? ? ?
weven talk about a baby... wht ofit now ? ? ? ?

you can probably tell im crying now its smudging the letters that i rite and this pen is start to fad doesnt matter i dont hav much more to sayand its good in a way becase now yo can see how much youv hurt me

you told me thatyou lovd me wihall your heartI knew you were being truthfl i coud seeit in yor eys and tell through your action i loved you with all my heArt to you told me that their was nothing else in this world that you loved
more than me ! !

and that made me happy

i had no idea that what we were doing was  W R O N G ! !
and that
everyone else who knew you was not being told i thoht youdidnt tell  lies thaT yo were Kind aNd loving to everyone and that that was what made you specIal so when people fond out that yo delcared you love for me you did the one thing

i thought you coudnt do

you did the
C  O  W  A  R  D  L  Y   T H I N G
Y O U   D E N I E D  
M E ! ! !

all those times you told me you      
          loved me those times
it was just you and me togeter and all those times you mentoned how great it would be to be the father of my baby
they meant nothing
didnt they
you Only                
         loved me to the point at which youd get ridofme to make yorselflok beter in everyone elses eys i couldnt believe it when i heard it all because of that other girl
the one you did not love as much as me when people got confused

you disowned meto save yor own SKIN

without even thinking about what it would do to me

i am hear nowriting this stupid note
alone
nd wtching my hndwriting get smugded by my tears
i hd bn right all alng
BOYS ll of thm wr nothing but scum ! !
pple who thgt tht us grls were jus Object to be traDed and plaYd until we oUtlived our use it
ws all abt who lked best around your arm
                                             it wasn't going to be me
i cnt drw
hve thy seen thos picture of her i saw ? ? ?
                                            
what if the rest of your frIends saw thoSe, theyd haTe yo, hoPefullyyou hurt me
SCARREDMEBYDENYINGME  IWONTFORGIVEYOU

i find out more about yo i found about how you deman attention frOm people who used to help yo liKe they owed you you coud never stand on yor own two feet you coud NEVERBE the man ithoght
you even fight with tHat ladY who Used tO be your friend When she saVe your life showed ungratful and sPite toward her she aganst yOu throg your sTupid actions and when she attacked you for itou tried to defenyorself with lies

never told aboUt these thingS bUt now i kno who you are i never agan love somebody
LIKEYOU

yor not flawles perfect loyal  kind bUt sTill their arE others who feelthat waY and is goin to

DESTROY  THEM





like it did to me.


i hope they realis that the reSon im noT arond is because of you
  used to love you
now only evry thing inside Me feels emPty
it woudmt be like that iF you did things diFFerent i wish i woud dieNOIWISH

YOUWOUDDIE

youd know hoW i Feel but that cant happen
and my heart cant love anymore you broke it cantfix it

nothing ican do
but wriTe THis nOTE

youl nevr see me agan

ill figt  one more time
only this time there be one less stuPid   S O U L    on eArth

bye dont wast time mising me
if anYone aSks tell them litle   B i o   ran aWay and





isnt worth looking for